Friendships

I'm a good friend. I don't have a huge circle of friends but the ones I do have, I treat well. I hold them close to my heart, they know they can rely, count on, and trust me; I treat them the way I would want to be treated.

I recently lost a person who I thought was a good friend. By lost, I mean we had a big blowout and now don't want anything to do with each other. We were on the cheer squad and swim team together in high school and shared a few classes every now and then. We were never "best friends" but we had some fun memories together and within the last couple of years got back in touch after she moved out of state.

Long story short, I feel like I was totally wronged. I did so much for this person only to have it all thrown back in my face. Obviously I don't want to be friends with someone who said and did the things she did, but I can't imagine it's ever easy to totally shut someone out of your life when you thought that everything was just "peachy keen", for lack of a better term.

This all came up when I was taking down and changing out some pictures I had of us old (and ex) friends. What happened and what was said was pretty shitty and in a sense, I'm glad it happened. Just a little sad is all.

*sigh*

I love where I live.

There are times when I complain about living in California because it's expensive and if you didn't know what month it was you wouldn't know what season we were in. But then there are times like today where I am just so grateful for living in California, Santa Cruz specifically. The weather has been absolutely gorgeous this week! Today it was 75 all day. It's starting to cool down now but it's still clear and beautiful as can be.

For lunch Ben and I grabbed a couple sandwiches and drove to a really cool spot where we sat on rocks above the water and watched the surf contest that was going on. I really enjoyed it. Any time we do stuff like that is when I truly realize how good we have it.

I hit 32 minutes on the elliptical today and bought an exercise ball and weights at Big 5. We decided to let Lani play with the ball for a while thinking, for some strange reason, that she wouldn't pop it. Yeah, she popped it. So on Ben's way home from taking pictures he's supposed to swing by Big 5 and get me a new one. I'm looking forward to using it.

I also weighed myself today for the first time in months and months. I actually weigh less now than I did the last time, though not by much. I hate getting on the scale. It sucks. Last night tIook out an old pair of jeans that I wore when Ben and I were dating to keep as a constant reminder that I can be that thin again if I just work at it.

January 14, 2009

Whew! Ben and I just got back from a bike ride. I was very proud of myself; I didn't need to stop once and made it up all of the hills! =)

So far, I've only missed exercise on 3 days out of 10. Saturday and Sunday of last weekend we were with family and in Tahoe and yesterday I was just too sick. We've slipped up a little on our eating habits but we are trying. We definitely are doing better now than we have ever been.

Ben has an MRI next week to see what exactly is going on with his back. At best he'll just need cortizone shots and physical therapy. At the worst he'll need back surgery. The Dr. basically said that if he doesn't get surgery now he'll probably end up needing it in his 40's. Wonderful! I'd honestly rather he got the surgery now while he's young, was out of work for a few more months to heal, and then back on the streets. Those cortizone shots are painful- my dad had to have them for his back and still hasn't had surgery.

I have no idea what to do for dinner tonight. If I ever get my rear off of the computer I'll finish my household chores and laundry. Ben doesn't seem too interested in making dinner either...we'll see what happens! LOL

Aries

I was looking at things online to buy for scrapbooking and came across a page of Aries stickers. Here are the words they used to describe people born between March 21st-April 19th:

Outspoken
Assertive
Aggressive
Adventurous
Passionate
Eager
Bold
Daring
Fiery Tempered
Spirited
Competitive
Initiative
Impulsive
Impatient
Energetic
Fearless
Leader
Vivacious
Take-Charge person
Brave

I would say that those words describe me pretty well. Although, I don't consider myself to be fearless or much of a leader. I can be both and have been those things before but I wouldn't say that's how I am for the majority of the time.

Drama, drama, drama.

What an eventful evening last night. I've talked about it so much since then that I am completely drained and not willing to go through it all again. In short, I'm no longer friends with a selfish, immature, evil, inconsiderate, jealous, pathetic excuse of a woman/adult. But one good thing came out of it- I have 2 tickets totaling $430 to go to New Orleans with another couple. The 4 of us are keeping our tickets and going to have an awesome vacation. The next time someone asks me to be in their wedding, I will politely say no and maybe offer to be a flower girl. LOL

ANYWAY. Ben and I went to Northern CA this past weekend to visit with some members of his family. We spent Saturday in Tahoe and had a blast. I hadn't been to the snow since I was probably 3 years old so it was a real treat for me. Now Ben is seriously dying to go snowboarding- I definitely think we'll be heading up that way again before the season's over. I'll give it a shot too but what I really want to do is rent a snow mobile, go sliding down a big hill, and...yeah, that's about it! haha I love the snow! When we got back, his Aunt made a wonderful dinner for everyone and it was really nice being together. Here are some pictures of our day in Tahoe:


We stayed in his Aunt's guest house over the weekend and she had some family photo albums we were able to look through. I love looking at old photos. It was really neat to see old ones of his family and Ben took some pictures of the pictures so that we could have them too. The oldest one we saw was from 1926. Very cool. I believe this was taken in 1959:

Week one: DONE

I hit 30 minutes on the elliptical today! I started out doing 20 min. on Jan. 1st, so week one of healthy eating and working out is completed! Tomorrow is the free day for Ben and I- no work out or healthy foods if we don't want to.

We're heading up north tomorrow morning to visit Ben's Aunt and his cousin's family. It should be a good time! We plan on driving to Tahoe on Saturday to see the snow. I haven't seen the snow since I was very little and Lani has never been- I'm anxious to see what her reaction is. The last time Ben and I went to Tahoe was for our 1 year wedding anniversary, so it has a special place in my heart. I'd like to visit a couple of the same spots we did when we went on that trip.

I also had my interview today- it went pretty well. I'm supposed to hear back from them at the end of next week (once they finish all of their interviews) and set up a time for me to come in for an hour or two to "socialize/play" with the kids. After that they will make their decision and hopefully I'll have a job!

Ahhh! My muscles are twitching! hehe I guess that means I got a good workout.

Lets see, today I need to do another load of laundry and get my outfit ready for my interview tomorrow. Other than that, my day is free. I'll probably read a lot more of my book: Eat, Pray, Love by Elizabeth Gilbert.

Last night Ben asked me what I wanted for Valentines Day. I hadn't even thought about it yet but it is just around the corner. I already know what I'm doing for him though.